Not really one particular thing :) When meditating I either focus on chakras, breathing, loving kindness, chant mantras or body scan, observe that pesky ego!, or a mishmash of the above! In terms of philosophy I enjoy reading all sorts of stuff like Eckhart Tolle, religious texts and buddhist texts, and am watching lots of videos by Sadhguru at the moment (he's awesome!), but am still exploring and trying lots of new things all the time!
Recently I've been catching myself wishing I could glimpse this blissful 'nothingness' love state again - I saw it once for about 2 minutes 3 years ago and never again since haha!! It's a bit frustrating because it was the most wonderful experience of my life (strangely, during one of the darkest periods of my life too!) and I can't seem to get there again but I also realise that seeking it so strongly will make it ever more elusive please might any of you guys have any suggestions? I've spent lots of time dropping all expectations during meditation but just ended up with nothing happening at all haha, then tried researching to work out what the meditation aim was but think that made it more difficult because then I assumed a particular outcome. I had PTSD in the past so might that have impaired my ability to feel emotion properly? Thanks in advance for your advice :)
Lots of love to you all!